How it happened to pass by me still leaves me in shock and confusion. Was it an accident that no one bothered to say anything? Was there a reason? I swear on my own life that I was unaware that you were gone for almost a year now.. It’s not that I didn’t care, but I barely even knew you. I don’t know how to feel. I just.. I thought you were alive. Alive, breathing, going on with your life miles and miles away in the Philippines. But no one told me. Death is not something that you just forget. I may not feel so emotionally wrecked because I simply never got the chance to really be close to you. I can only remember images and faint memories of how your voice sounded, of how you looked when I was only seven years old. But that was so long ago.. And I only figure out now that you’re gone while everyone else has known for a year?
How did I not know? How is that possible? It’s such an insane thought.. Believing someone was alive for so long until a little phone call brings up so much confusion.
Regardless, rest in paradise, Tatay. I wish life had brought us together in a way that I would know and love more about you, but I guess the distance and life itself didn’t occur in that favor. I thank God for keeping you in his blessing, even as I was unaware of your presence no longer being here on this earth.. I love you.
