"You’re never going to learn. Maybe I shouldn’t judge so quickly when I haven’t heard what you have to say, but I don’t think you deserve that at the moment.." is this pointed towards the person I think its towards? haha
YUP. Lol I can’t answer this privately from my phone, so idgaf
Almost exactly a year ago, I visited my grandma at the same hospital I did today. Thank God she’s in a much better condition and she’ll be able to go home soon. She was able to spend Thanksgiving with us and I know she’ll be here for Christmas as well. Seeing her talk so lively today really convinced me that she is going to be fine. She was even singing and telling jokes all over the place, haha. Even when I didn’t understand some of the things she said, I know that in her heart she is still young and happy. Seeing her smile takes away the worry of seeing her in a hospital bed. Everything will be okay.
Too busy for life. But I can’t sleep right now and I really have to. Gotta be awake in about an hour.
But anyway, getting to a certain point in this post.
Stop sending yourself anonymous asks.
You’re never going to learn. Maybe I shouldn’t judge so quickly when I haven’t heard what you have to say, but I don’t think you deserve that at the moment. I speak out of anger and disappointment, knowing that you basically made the same mistake you always have so many times in a row. And this time, you took it to another fuckin’ level. I’m your friend and all, but after giving you the benefit of the doubt from the beginning, you still screwed it up for too many people. I really don’t think I should care much about what you want anymore.
Maybe you were never as real to me as I continued to believe. Maybe I only kept that in my mind for my own benefit, when in the end we were just both lying to ourselves. Don’t get me wrong, the past was as real as I always said it was, but as it faded I realized that things aren’t worth dwelling on anymore. I think I can give myself a little more self respect, knowing that somewhere in my mind, I’ve still held hope in thinking we’d go back to our old selves. Haha, but no worries. I’ve got no reason to keep that up anymore, right? Respect and love to you, always. <3
I hate seeing my dad so emotionally unstable. It hurts me more than I show, and I worry about what he goes through. He knows that I’m here to listen and I appreciate that he trusts me enough to tell me about his personal problems. But out of all people, he really deserves to be happy for all the things he’s worked for in his life. I feel like crying every time I see him fake a smile, or when he makes a joke out of his sadness. I want to sit by him and hug him while he plays guitar to get his mind off things.
Man.. This makes me so sad.
I never know what you want. I care for you so much, yet I don’t really see your appreciation for all the times that I’ve stayed by your side, whether it seemed that you needed me or not. I just get a little tired of you putting me out of your life when all I’ve done is helped you and been there to simply listen. I’m sure that you don’t mean to come off that way, but it happens. I’m taking it as a sign for me to let you do you if you want to change. I’m not going to try and stop you from being yourself.
Although I’ve said this to too many people over time, I always mean it as much as I do now. Remember that I’ll always be here. Stay happy, don’t screw yourself over for stupid reasons.
I’ve been too busy to keep my Tumblr up lately. I’ll come back during break and all, I promise. But even at this moment I’m too stressed and caught up with things to care about what goes on here anymore, hah.
I hope you all are doing well though. Come through and watch West Side Story tonight or tomorrow night @730PM for $16! (It’s basically what I’ve been busy with the whole time I’ve been MIA. All worth it!)
Who has helped you get through the days recently since you were sad? Name them.
Haha. I also didn’t reply to this fast enough.
Well I’m getting through it slowly, but I really wouldn’t have been able to hold myself together well enough last week without JARK, NAKKs, AJ, Kyle, Paola & Niko. Forreal. There were others who also cared and I appreciated it, but those people saw the extremes of it all without needing to do anything but be themselves; and that’s what helped the most.