Today was a slight turnaround from the previous. Lots of food, fun costumes, nice weather, good company, productivity, slow mending and time spent with the significant other (: I feel better. Hope you all had a lovely Halloween!
Audrey! I don't know what's going on with your life, but you'll get through it cause you're a strong beautiful person. Yes? Yes. ^_^ Just felt like leaving a note cause you seemed really sad today at rehersals. /: Okay, have a goodnight!
Ahh I just saw this right now! Don’t worry though, I’m trying my best. Thanks girl, have a good night as well<3
What you don’t realize is how much this hurts me. You don’t realize how much of a negative effect you’re making on me rather than helping me at all. You may have good intentions but the way you’re playing them out makes the situation worse. I may not deserve negotiation but you’re really just burying me in a deeper hole of insecurity. What you call “support” and “love” is only criticism and hurtful. I come home and my day is immediately turned around by the things you say and the way you act towards me. I know it’s only the two of us in this house; that’s why I hate it. You’re supposed to be the person I can always turn to; the person who will have unconditional love for me because I give it in return. How do you expect me to improve and make you proud when you’re the one pushing me from becoming better?
Dear Ignorant Anon, Hop off Audrey's long imaginary dick and go fall off a cliff. ; I love youuu Secret Lovaaah! If you ever need a shoulder to cry on or someone to listen to you, know that I'm always here. A phone call/text away. Distance ain't shit, I gotchu forever & alwaysss<3
D’aw, don’t even trip. Thank you, Secret Lovaaah<3
Aside from the constant verge of breaking down so often today, I truly appreciate the people who were considerate enough to check up on me and do what they could to put a smile on my face. Especially those who I’m not very close to, and those who are able to tell when I’m upset without me saying a single word. (Mr. Rawdon, haha. <3) I really am blessed with such wonderful friends who never fail to give me a confidence boost or a laugh; or even just a hug. Friends who say the right things at the right times when I feel that I’m at my lowest. You don’t know how grateful I am to have y’all and I love you ever so much. (‘:
I really need some time to myself, yet I need the support of others to keep me sane. I don’t know what has gone through my mind this time but I can’t do this alone. I’m always full of good intentions but my actions have continued to disappoint the people I love. No longer can I let this coastline mindset control my life.. I need to get my shit together— fast. I still need some space to be alone for a while, distance myself and rearrange what’s real and what can be disregarded. It’s amazing how much I’ve been kicked around and slapped in the face with reality in the past 24 hours. But like I said; I can’t do this by myself. Dead end, girl. No other way to keep running; it’s time to move forward.
why do you say i love you to all these guys if you have someone
HAHA, yo. This such a ridiculous question.
I’m not sure if you have friends whom you hold very dear to you, but I say I love you “to all these guys” because I do love them. As friends, close friends perhaps, and nothing more. The type of love that I have for my homies is completely different than the love I have for my “someone.” And I’m pretty sure majority of people understand that, except you of course.
That’s like asking why people say I love you to their brothers and sisters.. Lol. -____-
I would also like to add that another one of my “favorite” junior guys from Logan would be Justin Carbonel (@iukekekini). Hi, *hand hug*, if you’re reading this I hope you don’t take offense that I didn’t immediately put you in that ask. But here’s a post dedicated to you. <3
I got to know Justin after SAYM Spring Retreat during freshman year, and I noticed that he’s seriously one of the rare people who come off so genuine and real as a first impression. I admire his dedication to everything; whether it’s school, sports, his faith, or even people in general. I remember at one point we were super close and talked everyday, but I guess that’s faded a little now. But he’s always there to support me at shows and I always love those sweet goodmorning/goodnight texts that remind me to “Stay beautiful,” haha. Always here for you if you need me, remember that. I stay missin’ you, and I love you, homie!
Juniors at Logan? Mostly from St. Anne’s/PYC, yee.
Niko is quite the amazing boyfriend and I could write essays about how amazing he is. Songs. Books. Speeches. Endless pages of fruity shit that is simply the truth. LOL. <3
Kyle is a real homie who I actually talk to almost everyday, “BESTFRIIIIEEEEEND,” lmfao! He supports me and I appreciate him caring about me so often. Christian is my bestfriend’s boyfriend and I’ve grown to approve of him for her and I enjoy kickin’ it with him. And Chris Trinh is craycray but I stay laughin’ whenever we talk! I miss seeing him around, haha.
Your Favorite junior guys from Mt. Eden and Logan?
All the junior homies at Mt. Eden though. Every single one that I’ve gotten to know through classes, Monarch Day, musicals, events, even lunch haha! All sweet, intelligent and hilarious young men that we all know and love. Forreal, love goes out to y’all. (and the Class of 2013 in general, holla at our girls, too! <3)
And since I barely talk to any juniors from Logan, my “favorites” are basically Niko Martinez, Kyle Cajulis, & Christian Caguiat. And maybe Chris Trinh if he actually hit me up once in a while, nigga. Lol!
I try my hardest to prove to my dad that I am worth more than the disapproval that I’m given. I understand the things that he does, the things that he sacrifices in order to provide me with what I would be lost without. Although we’ve made progress since last summer, I still feel as if there is tension between us— especially when it comes to things that haven’t made any improvement. It’s sad to say that we may even communicate less ever since school began, and I’m constantly conflicted in deciding if, how, or when I should open up to him. We’re either on sketchy terms or we’re speaking about everything above the surface in order to avoid anymore problems.
I am always considering his happiness and overall well-being; his older age begins to worry me at times. I guess it comes with the contradicting fact that he loses patience yet grows more tolerant over the years. I just wish I could understand what goes on in his head…
That moment when you want to tell @ronnieyooooo to shut up already with his comments that start to get annoying— then realizing it’s just his bitchass personality and you miss/love him too much to even bother.
During church today, I opened up his right hand and traced the lines across his palm. I studied the significant ones and opened up my own hand to compare. To my surprise, I found them to be the same. I glanced at him in question as we then opened up our left hands, and it happened once again; the lines of our palms matching. It was crazy, and I couldn’t stop looking back and forth. He said, “It’s ‘cause we’re meant to be.”
Oh, well hi choir. Tonight, we experienced a preview of what happens when people don’t have their shit together. It is way too early in the year for things to be this out of hand, so it would be great if we all would just step our game up. It’s apparent that no one realizes that we ain’t headed in the right direction right now.. But it’s also early enough to still improve. And if you don’t care about this and don’t plan on taking any initiative, I highly suggest you leave. We really don’t need that kind of half-ass attitude here. Thanks.
is that you’re so much stronger than you think. People will always love you for the things you’ve done and the things you’re capable of doing. Why? Because we believe in you. We all have those inside lives that seldom others know, and it’s understandable that the wall breaks down sometimes. Even when you’re strict and doing your job, people have respect for you. Everyone deserves happiness in one way or another; remember that. Have that same respect and confidence in yourself. I’m here to support you.