January 2011
Realism or hypocrisy?
You say all of these negative things about what has become of our relationship, altering reality so that it is in your favor. What you’ve missed is that it’s all in your mind, convincing yourself to turn against the one person who pulled through the fight that was never fair. Stop blaming me when all I’ve done is try.
I love that you tell me you’re mine. It makes me happy, and I woudn’t want it any other way. But how long will it take for you to let go and allow the world to know as well? We’re always stuck. It’s always “I don’t know” and “it’s okay.” Why do I find myself frustrated and moping more than I am content and smiling? I just want you.
I suppose
I should do some homework. I’ve been in my towel for the past half hour, laying on my bed and waiting for something to motivate me to get up. Hah. My dear weekends, I do wish you wouldn’t make me leave you so abruptly. Yet, time stops for no one. The present is always changing and it seems like my life is rushed. Oh, well.
Fre$h:
Out the shower -ly shaved legs Cut layers Clothes, tags still attached Food waiting for me Mind
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Need you bad.
I am so tired of feeling like this; missing you more than I should, never being with you enough. It really isn’t fair and I hate pretending like it is.
I hate these obligations. I don’t like being in this position, and it is taking way too much out of me to get used to. Why do I sacrifice my time when I’m never happy when I see you? I sometimes wish I could shut this part of my life out for everyone’s own good, but I won’t. It will take much more to change how I feel. I’m sorry.
“Don’t ask me what’s wrong, ask me what’s right.”
I sometimes wonder if you deserve all the chances...
*eyeroll, sigh.
Will there ever be a time when you aren’t so conscious about the people around you? In general, or whatever the circumstance is; it’s always so hard for you to let it go and just go with how you’re feeling. Why should their opinion matter? It’s me, and it’s you. It’s us, so get used to it.
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Enlighten me.
Why is it that I try a little more everyday to make things right with you again, yet you always seem to brush me off? Yes, I see you. Our eyes meet and I make a clear attempt to say hello, or I give you a friendly smile. What do I receive in return? A quick second of a blank look, the awkward tension of suspense, then the disappointment of you turning away and acting like you didn’t see a...
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Yesterday
Audrey: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RENZ!
Renz: Thank you little sister!
Audrey: I love you!
Renz: I love you too!
Audrey: You're fat!
Renz: You're fatter!
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Che cosa'e questa, ohime?
Pieta, pieta, pieta!
Amor ‘e un certo che,
Che delirar mi fa!
Anonymous asked: i like the way you flip your music in 2nd period ;) it's hawt
I can't stand it when you cry.
I know you can’t help it, but I just don’t know how to react anymore. Over the phone, in person; it never ends. How do you expect me to hold a conversation with you? To visit you and see you in person? I can’t handle being around you for more than a few hours. It’s the truth, and I’m sorry. But when the only thing you can do is cry for attention whenever I’m...
whaddafuhsj asked: Oh crap.
Stephanie & Audrey & Sarah Jane = ?!?!?!?!?!? ;D
Stephanie & Audrey & Sarah Jane = ?!?!?!?!?!? ;D
jessica-aileen-deactivated20120 asked: No, Princess Audrey. ALL HAIL THIS MAGNIFICENT GIRL WITH A LOVELY VOICE.
Killer
Those eyes, that body. That beautifully angled face and perfectly imperfect hair. That devilish smile and the butterflies that storm like crazy from just one look. I bite my lip and my face flushes. You smile as you look away, and I am unable to contain the tempts of infatuation building up inside me. The things I want to do, I would; but they would not be acceptable if we were not alone. Oh, how...
Can we please forget the world and spend the day in bed? I would love to fall asleep with you and wake up to the comfort of being in your arms.
That would be nice.
What bothers me the most
is that I do all I can to make up for the little things I do that upset you. I’m sorry I mess up every now and then. Yet, you remain unchanged after all this time, repeating the same actions that pain me the most on a daily basis.
How is that fair?
No such thing
Roy: Oh, I see that look on your face. Audrey's in love!
Audrey: A "look?" There is no such thing.
Roy: Nope! You're in denial, I already know.
Audrey: Roy, go away. I'm far from it. Especially today.
Roy: I know who it is!
Audrey: Shut up.
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Oh, and no.
Audrey with short hair = NEVER AGAIN.
Well, unless it’s some fancy A-line with nice layers and bangs that work with my thick hair, and doesn’t make my cheeks look chubbier than they really are. Hah! But I don’t have the time, the money, or the balls for that. Nor do I really want it.
haileelauren asked: Hey, uh next time I dress like a little wanna be hoe can you tell me? Kthanks.
LOL.
LOL.
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Maroon 5 | Sunday Morning (Studio Version)
I just...
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Strive for optimism
You will feel rested tomorrow morning. The weather will be wonderful. You will be productive. You will not let anyone get in your way. You will help someone with a problem. You will smile, laugh, sing and dance. You will eat good food. The week is almost over. You know how to handle this daily life. You have amazing, loving and hilarious friends who will keep you sane. You will grow as a person...
I would expect you to know
that I will never do anything to intentionally hurt you. Countless opportunities have been spent trying to prove myself; to be the best I can be for you, and to prove that you will always be worth my time.
But you must realize that I am human, just as you are. Among these opportunities I will also make countless mistakes. In this, I hope that you are not one to number them as they go by.
Anonymous asked: roomate for tour?
Anonymous asked: You're a beautiful, strong, and independent girl who can achieve anything that she sets her mind to. I hope you know this. Keep your head up
Really; it's fine.
I’m used to waiting.
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I can't help it.
I find our choreographer attractive. HAHA.
He’s not the best looking guy out there, but I swear. The emotion he has in the way he moves is effortless. His dances tell stories like he was born to do it. And that swag when he walks into the room.. unf. Everything he does is just cute or something odd that only he can pull off and make it seem cool; like his headphones around his head or...
I have to be at school in less than 6 hours.
My dear sleep, I’m sorry for treating you as horribly as I do, I miss you so much. Blame school and my urge to stay up for keeping us apart so often. I’ll see you Saturday.
braydenschenn-:
Teenage dream from a boy’s...
My nigga JD though.
imheckalasexy: *awkward wave
imheckalasexy: hi
dreethedinosaur: omg, why are you even awake?!
dreethedinosaur: *awkward wave...heh
imheckalasexy: i should not be awake
imheckalasexy: i agree
dreethedinosaur: even if it is saturday. i mean, one time i pushed my bedtime to 8:05
imheckalasexy: WOW
dreethedinosaur: i woke up feeling so guilty
imheckalasexy: gotta call the cops
imheckalasexy: cause we got a bad girl
*He's a boy and I'm a girl. We're not supposed to talk to each other, and we should be sleeping at 8PM every night. REBELS? I think so!
I miss you more than I can explain.
I feel like it’s too much to really open up to people nowadays. Especially girls, oh goodness. I just can’t. I find that when I “vent” to them, they sugarcoat the hell out of my situation and I never really get anywhere. Sometimes sugarcoating is good, and necessary when I’m in a bad place; just not when I’m looking for real advice. A lot of them have this need...
Hah,
Today I realized that I say, “What am I even doing?” out loud when I get lost in choreo and I stop dancing.
Very relevant to my life in general.
What am I even doing?
The urgency and longing in your voice shows how oblivious you are to the fact that I stopped trying to care a long time ago.
Go away.
haileelauren asked: Happy Birthday! (:
abbyimperial-deactivated2011092 asked: Happy Birthday!
Curious.
I was a little surprised by the news I received today. It’s funny how quickly things change. I guess now the roles have been switched and you’re just another little something to think about at night. I would ask for details, but I won’t.
I’m glad you’re happy.
Airtight
Trapped in an empty space, walls closing in. Ahead lies the image of my wants and needs, the image of my future; my happy. I reach out my hand to touch the beauty of it all, but sudden confusion sets me back, a thin wall awakening my senses. Like glass, I am taunted by the view for I cannot feel what I see.
I do not have the strength to break through this glass that taunts me so well. How much I...
Brighter thoughts.
Thank Goodness It’s Friday.
I’m not broke at the end of the week!
Intense Dance Camp session after school until 10.
Dinner break during Dance Camp, lolol.
Turning in all the homework that I actually did tonight.
Spring clothing in January?
No tests, no stress.
You, you, and you.
Well deserved weekend.
G double O D, good. (Night!)
uglykidvybe:
“Everybody wants to rule the...